Happy December!

Wow, remember when I said I would write more? Yeah, me too. Guess that didn’t work out. This is going to be pretty brief, because I am still in the midst of finals right now, but I figured I might as well give a TL;DR on what’s been happening:

  1. I am no longer vegan. It was great fo the summer when there was so many different kinds of fresh fruit available. However, now that I’m in school and winter is in full swing, it was a lot harder to keep up. I’m still vegetarian and lactose intolerant, but I eat eggs in the morning now because I need protein/iron in my life since I rarely eat beans or legumes.
  2. Submitting the first draft of my thesis today was such a weird feeling. It was 36 pages of blood, sweat, and tears, but overall I’m pretty proud of what I accomplished so far. I’m looking forward to continuing working on it over break.
  3. The opera is over and done with, and it was SO much. I’m so glad I did it, but I also am relieved that it is the last singing I’ll be doing for a while. You forget how much work it is to do something (especially something well) after it’s been 234324 years.
  4. No longer going to bed at 9-10 pm. I usually stay up to around 10:30 or 11, and then I wake up around 6 am. It’s super dark in the morning, and so earlier in the year it was nice to get up and see the sun. Now I have to wait a little longer.
  5. I reached Gold Membership at sweetgreen! Essentially this means that I’ve spent way too much money there in the past year. #sorrynotsorry

Hopefully I can fill you guys in more and maybe actually produce some real content over break. In the meantime, let’s all try to stay #NotFazed.

Wow, it’s been awhile…

Hi everyone. I realize that I haven’t written, well, in about 10 months. Which is simply inexcusable on my part, so I would really like to apologize for who I am as a person. Life has gotten in the way of a lot of things, and I’m incredibly busy, but I’m also incredibly happy. Like, the most consistently happy in a long time.

I don’t want to promise that I’ll blog more frequently, because if I do that, I’ll feel more pressured to write, and then the quality of my posts will decline even more than the low standard I’ve already set myself. But I do promise that I will TRY my hardest to write more.

So, yeah. Here’s an update on my life:

  1. Being vegan has been great! There are, of course, a few times I’ve fallen off the wagon (I did once eat a few cubes of cheese at an event despite my lactose intolerance, and I sorely regretted it), but I’ve always gotten back on. Also, did you know movie theater popcorn is usually vegan because the “butter” they use is actually not butter? I know. Groundbreaking.
  2. Writing a senior thesis is intense. But I think the hardest part is that it’s something that nobody can really force you to do except you…you alone are responsible for producing a 35-page document that you can be proud of. This means a lot of writing and researching and self-loathing. Half of me is writing a thesis because I actually do care about the topic (I’m looking at child adoption from an economic perspective), and the other half is because I want to take an epic Insta on the steps of my school library right before I hand it in. So yes, I will remain married to my thesis. But it is a cold lover.
  3. I’m starring in an opera! This is the second opera I’ve done in college, and it will most likely be my last. It’s just crazy because the opera I’m doing, aka potentially the last show I do as a student, is also the first show I did as a sixth grader in my Catholic primary school. It’s nice that I can end my mediocre singing career full circle.
  4. Waking up at 4 am and going to bed at 9-10 pm is still a thing. And I love it. Also, I’ve become good friends with my local Starbucks. I’m usually the second person there (there’s always that person who’s gotta be an overachiever, smh), but it’s okay. The amount of money I’ve spent on Starbucks in the past few months is absolutely disgusting, but I’m over it.
  5. Life as a senior in undergrad is both amazing and terrifying. I love sharing a room with the flawless Quinn Rose, for the second year in a row. But I think it’s fair to say that both of us have been worrying about what the future holds. What comes after undergrad? What do you mean I have to start paying for my own Wi-Fi? There’s a lot of rushing around to figure out EXACTLY what I’m doing post-grad, but I’m also trying to soak up every last minute of true ~student life~ as much as possible.

So, yeah. That’s pretty much the TL;DR on my end. I’ll write soon, I hope. I can’t promise anything, but I can promise that I’ll stay #NotFazed.

Countdown to the New Year…

FINALLY. After much too long, I finally got my computer back, screen all fixed. I’m so happy that I can finally do all the things that I wanted to while I didn’t have it…mainly, watch Netflix.

This is going to be a short post, and if you listened to the latest episode of “Mixed Feelings,” you learned that NYE is my least favorite holiday. And that I don’t do the whole “resolution” thing. But I decided, for the sake of a new year, I’ll ATTEMPT to come up with a list of resolutions. So, here’s what I got:

  1. Write more.
  2. Exercise more. Like, legitimately.
  3. Try to actually eliminate eggs/dairy because it hurts your stomach whenever you eat them.
  4. Be nicer.
  5. Be funnier.

Okay, the last three are sort of a joke, but not really. I’m all about self-improvement, and I think it’s so important to be able to take each day in stride and look at the silver lining(s). True, 2016 was rough on all counts. Politically, personally, etc. But 2017…this really is a new start, and I think it’ll be a year worth getting excited about.

Stay #NotFazed, fam, and I hope you all had a safe and happy New Year’s Eve.

What to wish people during the holiday season…

Hi, fam. I’m writing this from my old high school computer, as my screen still hasn’t been fixed yet. I should be getting it next week, and then hopefully I can return to my former productive self. Although “productive” is definitely relative, especially since it’s my winter break.

Being home from college is surprisingly more enjoyable than I expected. I’ve had a lot of time to think and reflect and recover from the semester. I also have had some time to look at my grades. I haven’t heard back about my re-grade request in my Libertarian class, but I did (surprisingly) well in my other classes. My 45-page paper on interracial adoption received an A, and I didn’t fail my econometrics class, although there’s an extremely high probability that I failed the final. So, all in all, despite this semester being my hardest academically, it was my best numerically. Or, letter-ally.

Anyways, tonight is Christmas Eve, so I’m singing at my high school’s Christmas Eve Mass. And just an hour or two ago, while I was studying for the GRE (which I’m taking the first week of February), I heard my mom wishing the woman who helped her book a hotel room for a family trip a “Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.” When she got off the phone, I teased her lightly, saying that she couldn’t wish people Merry Christmas without knowing their religion, and she rolled her eyes, knowing that I was giving her a hard time because, as she puts it, I’ve become “a lot more liberal since starting college.”

Of course, there is some truth to the statement. And yes, it’s very politically correct, but it’s generally accepted that unless you know the holiday preferences of someone, where you can then specify, you should wish everyone “Happy Holidays.”

Now, my family and I disagree about this, because they don’t think there’s anything wrong with wishing people a Merry Christmas. And there’s nothing wrong, technically! Everyone SHOULD have a Merry Christmas, since Christmas is typically celebrated on December 25th, and why should anyone be deprived of a fantastic December 25th? I think the problem comes from ASSUMING people are Christian or even religious, and then being insulted if they don’t return the favor after wishing them a specific holiday’s greeting.

So…should we say Merry Christmas & Happy New Year? Or simply resign to Happy Holidays?

I personally like wishing people a Merry Christmas, because I like how it rolls off my tongue, and how it reminds me of spending Christmases in the city with  my family. But in college, I’m always hesitant, and often resort to “Happy Holidays” because I don’t want to offend anyone. Better to be politically correct than sorry, right?

But if somebody wishes me a Happy Hanukkah, and I’m not Jewish, I’m not necessarily offended. I think it’s cool that there are so many other religions and cultures in America, and that we do have the freedom to express our identities by wishing others various greetings. The only problem is when people wish people a Merry Christmas and expect to hear nothing else back but a “Merry Christmas,” even though it might be uncomfortable for some people to wish people a Merry Christmas if they themselves don’t celebrate it. For example, I would feel uncomfortable wishing someone a Happy Hanukkah, because I don’t know what personally goes into Hanukkah, and so how can I wish someone to have a good one if I don’t even know what an average one entails? (That was a poor attempt at humor.)

Here’s what I think we should do. I think we should wish people what we celebrate first, as sort of an informational tidbit, and then wish them a general Happy Holidays. And then, they can return the favor by wishing us what THEY celebrate, and then a general Happy Holidays. Of course, this system only works if everyone agrees to it, otherwise it might seem a bit egotistical since you’re speaking as if YOUR preference takes priority. Linguistically, in this way, it does. But obviously, conceptually, it does not.

So, conclusively, I think it would be LIT if everyone would wish another the holiday THEY themselves personally celebrate, followed by a “Happy Holidays,” and wait to hear the response. If the response is also a “Merry Christmas,” cool. If the response is something else, even COOLER, because now you’ve met someone who celebrates something different! Diversity is the spice of life!

We just shouldn’t be personally offended if someone wishes us the wrong holiday. We should be personally offended if someone wishes us an “Unhappy Holidays!” Because that’s just not in the Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa/holiday spirit.

And until next time, stay #NotFazed.

Finals are final…

Hi, fam. Wow. I can’t believe it’s been nearly a month since I’ve last written. And I apologize, but finals have really gotten the best of me. If you’re wondering how I did, well, so am I. I won’t know what I got, officially, until grades come out. And even with that, I’m not sure if they’re final. I submitted a request for a re-grade of my final exam for my Libertarian Economics class, and I won’t know about that until January 9th.

Which gives me some time to mentally prepare for a lower grade (which is definitely a possibility, but I’m keeping my fingers crossed for, if not a higher grade, then at least the same).

Aside from procrastinating by wasting time complaining to friends about studying, I submitted a 45-page paper about interracial adoption for one econ class, and I had my last final of the semester in econometrics on Monday. Here’s a conversation of what happened afterward:


Friend 1: Hey, what did you guys think?

Me: I didn’t think it was that bad!

Friend 2: Agreed. What did you get for #5?

Friend 1: I got 0.54.

Friend 2: Okay, I got 0.55, so that’s good. Gillian, what did you get?

Me: Well, I was not aware we needed to provide a numerical answer, so I wrote a paragraph about what I thought the answer was, without doing a single calculation.

Friend 1 and Friend 2: …

Me: Yeah, I know. Yikes.


Aside from that minor fiasco, I survived finals. This was definitely the most brutal finals period I’ve ever experienced, and I once had to write 3 papers in a 24-hour window. I also had to take 3 finals in a 36-hour window my sophomore fall.

But anyways, I’m halfway done with junior year! And to celebrate it, I broke my computer! Yes!!!

So, I dropped my MacBook three inches from the floor onto a rug, and the screen cracked. I had to pay a small fortune to get it fixed, and I paid extra to get it back before Christmas. I am aware finals are over, but I have a long list of things to do that require me to have my computer. And so yeah. I’m not proud of it. Neither is my credit card statement.

ANYWAYS, the holidays are approaching. My family and I celebrate Christmas, which I’m always excited about because we have a few traditions that made me feel like a kid again. We also go to Christmas Eve Mass at my high school, so I’m singing at that this year, which will be a nice throwback.

Thanks for putting up with my absence, and over break, I will definitely write more. I HAVE SO MUCH TIME. Not really, but RELATIVELY, yes.

Stay #NotFazed, fam.

What I’m grateful for…

Hi, y’all. I really want to apologize for my absence. There’s apparently not enough time for me to live my life AND post frequently, so consider this my formal petition to some divine entity to add more hours to the day.

Anyways, in honor of Thanksgiving, here is a list of things that I am especially grateful for:
  1. My family. My dog. Mostly my dog. (Just kidding, Mom, I swear!)
  2. My friends. Honestly perplexed with how they can put up with me and my peculiarities.
  3. Quinn Rose. Don’t know how I would be able to get through this year without you…or without “Mixed Feelings” as the most important, if not only, creative outlet in my life.
  4. Health. Well, aside from the fact that I am currently trying to recover from a nasty sinus infection, I am the PICTURE of health.
  5. The regressions in my econ term paper being statistically significant.
  6. College basketball starting.
  7. 2016 almost being over.
It’s been a rough ride, folks. I know that it’s been super hard to stay #NotFazed lately, but I couldn’t do it without you. Thus, I’m grateful for each and every one of you. Have a safe and amazing holiday, fam.

Just like our new podcast, here’s a post that’s filled with a “mix” of random things that I felt like sharing

Hey, it’s me. I haven’t written since before Halloween, so let me describe some of my other fantastic costumes from that weekend. One night, my best friends and I were the continents of Pangea (although Australia was sick and couldn’t make it). On the backs of our matching t-shirts, we wrote why we chose to represent our respective continents. I was Africa, because I’m always in De-Nile. Other variations included:

  • Americas: Because Cosmo told me not to put up walls.
  • Europe: Because I’m falling apart.
  • Asia: Because rice is gluten-free.
  • Antartica: Because nothing can melt this cold heart.

Another night I dressed up as a frat boy. I wore a badge that said “Disregard females, acquire currency.” And I said things like, “My dad will sue you!” and “Wait, can you repeat that? I couldn’t hear over my male privilege.” It was an extremely comfortable costume, and the sad thing is I owned every single item that I wore (Vineyard Vines boxers, boys’ Vineyard Vines button-down, Nike mid-calves, Sperry’s, baseball cap from the U.S. Open). I don’t know what that says about me as a person, but I’m not going to dwell on it.

Ever since Halloween, my life has been unreasonably hectic. And I’m not even sure why. Just all of these random things started piling up, and before you know it, I have all of these responsibilities and little to no motivation to do them.

But pain builds character.

So does manual labor. My job at the Grille is going swell. I burnt myself on the fryer last night, but I’ve perfected the consistency of my Oreo milkshakes, so I think I’m going to be fine. Although, however, there was this one person who ordered mozz sticks and a chicken quesadilla, but he requested that I time it so that it would be finished (and still warm) when he came back 25 minutes later. I was extremely annoyed, but if there’s one thing I learned from service jobs, it’s that the customer is always right. Or something.

In more positive news, Quinn and I (and two of our best friends) are going to Copenhagen for spring break. Yes, we planned this far in advance, but round-trip tickets costed less than $400, which was a bargain. And Azraa, our roommate/best friend who’s coming with us, is a low-key travel agent and found a flight with a layover in Reykjavik, so we can explore Iceland while we’re in the area.

Speaking of Azraa, she’s a boss and just signed on the dotted line of her contract, committing to a really competitive job offer that she got for the summer. YAY FOR EMPLOYMENT. And if all goes according to plan, we should be living together come June, and maybe even after graduation, which I’m super excited about.

But, most importantly, Quinn and I finally launched our podcast “Mixed Feelings,” so definitely check that out on your preferred podcast platform of choice. We also have a great new episode of “Solidly Mediocre,” where we talk about relationships, so have a listen if you want to hear me talk about my love life (or lack thereof).

Before I end this, let me remind you that TODAY IS ELECTION DAY. SO FULFILL YOUR CIVIC DUTY AND VOTE. Or don’t, because we’re lucky enough to choose not to vote if we don’t want to. But I voted in my first presidential election, and I gotta say that it was pretty exciting.

That’s it for now, fam. Remember to always stay #NotFazed.